Post 5

I had a very good day at work today, the people I worked with are very friendly. 

I got a Stafford duffel for a $1 today at work.

Lennon, Sam and Abby came over for a visit today.

I am going to put down the pros and cons of moving to my own apartment and then hopefully I will have a clear picture of what I really want to do.

Pros of moving

1. Finally have my very own place and I get to make all the choices myself.
2. Help Vicki to have to grow up and take care of herself.
3. Have only me to pick up after.

Cons of moving

1. Hard work
2. Need lots of money
3. May loose the gazebo
4. May loose having a washer and dryer
5. will loose the trash compactor
6. may be hard on Vicki
7. grand kids will not be able to come over on their own

Not sure if this helped but I did my best 

Post 4

I am sitting at home, it is 8 pm and I have been off today. I go to work at 7 am for the next 3 days. 

Yesterday I was out most of the day. I went out for breakfast at Starbucks. I had an white egg and spinach wheat wrap that was really good. I had an apple for a snack and then had an early dinner with Maryann at Applebees. I went off my diet a little. But our time was really nice. 

I also shopped at Target and got spring place mats and napkins for the table. Today I went to Joann's and got artificial flowers for my purple vase. The table is beautiful. 

I got called about working but I said no because I work in the morning. I started feeling bad that I said that and that I didn't go back over to Lynnette's to help her with the pictures. 

I was beating myself up again. So I got out of my chair and I looked at my beautiful table and enjoyed it and I went out and cleaned my kitchen and I do feel better. 

Yesterday I went to see 2 apartments and really liked the second one allot  I called Lonna this morning and shared my excitement she was very interested and shared my joy. 

Post 2

I need to set a goal for this post. And be clear what I am writing about. I think 6 months sounds good. September 6, 2013. Still not sure about giving this blog a theme yet. 

I had to be at work at 7am this morning. I did get my exercising done before work. Even though I got my exercising done and got ready in a timely matter and liked the way I looked when I went to work I felt moody. 

Then at work when I was not put with a team on a project I took it hard. Worried that I had done something wrong. I finally was given a project and did the best job I could do and did my best to get over my mood. I got put in the home quad from 10 to 12 which I really enjoyed. All in all I really enjoyed my day. There was bad news at work for team members have lost their jobs and remind me that things could be worse or better which ever way you see it.

I worked in kids and saw great deals on kids close so after work I bought a top for Lennon, Sam and Alex. I also picked up Vicki's pants. went to Lynette's and dropped off the clothes and while I was there Rob offered me some food. I said yes because it sounds so good. It was not a good idea but I did it any way. the food tasted pretty good but I am not sure how far I went off my diet. 

Vicki invited me to a jewelry party tonight and I am going because the lady works at Yankee candle and I want to see her home. I am nervous that I will want to spend money I really don't have.  

Oh well I am off tomorrow and I am going out tonight. I may have a great time. 

Some words about Duke. I called him this morning to let him know I went to work early so he wouldn't think I was avoiding him. He called me 3 times today and left messages. I tried to call him after work and he did not answer or let it go to voice mail. I really don't want to continue this relationship because of all the doubts I have when we are apart. But every time he comes around he is so sweet I feel guilty about all the bad thoughts I have when he is away. Today I thought if I would just tell him what kind of relationship I want and give him the choice to change or we go our separate ways. 

post 3

I am at Starbucks typing on my iPad with a keyboard. I am dressed nice and enjoying my friday. I need to make plans for this day. I have made plans with Maryann for dinner.

I am going to check out an apartment for me to live alone in. I am nervous about the longer drive. But faith tells me I will know what to do. For doors will open and doors will close and I will be led in the direction I am to go. Everything is good.

I so enjoyed my breakfast here at Starbucks, tasty and good for me.

First Post

I am starting this blog to take a good look at my life. I hope in writing down how I see my life I will be able to quiet my thoughts that put me down and see all the good in my life on paper. In writing out my thoughts I hope to clean out the garbage in my head and simple leave the good stuff. 

I want to record all the changes taking place in my life this year. I have put off things in the past like taking my car in to have it checked, going into get my eyes examined, starting a diet, starting an exercise program.

But this year I have already done all those things. I am on week 3 of the Richard Simmons Hope Challenge.

In February I took my car into the shop and had it looked at. I found out that the transmission needs to be replaced at $2500, which I didn't do but I did get an oil change and the transmission flushed. 

Last week I got my eyes examined and ordered new glasses and even my first pair of sun glasses. Found out my eye sight is better than before. 

Today when I vacuumed upstairs I noticed I did not tire out. Also I had been experiencing lots of pain at work since they put me out on the floor for long hours and now the pain is gone, thanks to the exercising I am doing with Richard Simmons. 

With my new diet I am learning to eat better and buying more fruits and veggies. I have steamed veggies for the first time ever and wow were they good. 

I still have some challenges in my life. Like whether I am going to make the move into a smaller apartment so I can live alone. And whether I should go out and find a new job. And whether I should stop seeing Duke, and go out and try dating again. 

I also find keeping the housework done a challenge. So I would like to find a simple way to live my life. But my mind is not a simple place. I jump from one thing to another pretty fast. 

I even think trying to write this all out is a big challenge. But if this works to help me to find a simple focus. 

I have been telling my self that I am kind, I am nice, I am her. 

That has been helping me not to focus on others. 

I have only done a little house work today, But I am starting this blog. So I do fill good about this. 

I believe that the best way to live is letting go of yesterday and tomorrow and simply live today. 

I am going to try to write every day everything that comes to me to write about.  And with this simple writing may I let go of the non important and listen for the important. 

Today

I vacuumed my room and dusted.

I cleaned the upstairs bath. 

I cleaned the kitchen floor

I did a load of laundry

I vacuumed and spotted the living room 

I cleaned out the frig 

I cooked the chicken and celery